2.22所思所想

所有人的看法和评价都是暂时的，只有自己的经历和成长是伴随一生的。

读这句话时，我刚好想起来前几天在视频号里看的一个视频是关于同一年龄段两个人的对比。其实不到最后，谁都不知道会有什么样的结局。人生就是一场马拉松，或许20多岁的你早早地结婚了，事业上也有一定成就，但是谁能知道后面会发生什么事情呢？会不会后面你有了小孩你离婚了？会不会你年龄大了面对公司的裁员？

回到我当下的生活，以前我参加工作（刚毕业那会儿），Michael夸我，我还真觉得自己了不起了，比同龄人厉害很多。事实上，我并没有比他们聪明多少，而是Michael需要称赞我来巩固人心，夸赞我，更好地收买我，为他服务，也就是所谓的PUA。

包括现在kyra招我进来的时候说会带我经常出差，带我去见各种领导之类的，我觉得自己被别人画饼了。

我现在明白了，真正重要的其实并不是我干了多少活，而是这个事情是否能给我带来积累，这个积累包括我的财富，专业经验，人脉资源，背景履历等等。

包括现在我估计快要离职了，我旁边的小周也已经开单了，估计我们公司的同事对我的议论也会有很多，例如我怎么还没有开单，她不是英语专八的嘛？每天工作还那么认真？是不是她能力有什么问题呀？

但是只有我自己清楚我的价值，我知道我离职之后还有很多事情可以做，我也相信未来有一天，公司的同事会非常羡慕我的生活，并且会非常惊讶我怎么变得这么厉害。

所以其实真的不用在意太多外界的声音，你的人生怎么样都是由你自己决定的，别人对你的看法都是暂时的，只有你自己经历了这些事情，学习到了事情，在下一次多去避免，不断积累学习，这个东西才是陪伴你一辈子的，这个才是你真正的财富。

最近在找工作，我有点小伤心但也领悟到了一件很重要的事情。

最近我打算换一份工作了，因为做外贸做得不是特别开心，我有英语专八，做事细心认真，但是迟迟没有大的订单，周围有些同事可能会在背后议论我，觉得我是不是能力不行。但是在外面参加活动时，又有很多人觉得我很优秀，经常夸我很聪明。

这些言论常常让我迷失自己，我仿佛被这些纷杂的言论控制了。但现在我渐渐明白，其实真的不用在意太多外界的声音，因为我知道工作的这几个月我收获了什么，你得到了什么，或者说我知道他们夸赞的背后目的究竟是什么。

所以渐渐地我开始合理地看待这些偏见或者夸赞，我的人生怎么样都是由我自己决定的。别人对你的看法都是暂时的，只有你自己经历了这些事情，学习到了东西，这个东西才是陪伴你一辈子的，这个才是你真正的财富。

加油，让我们一起共勉。

Nowadays, when I was looking for a new job, I was a little sad but also, I realized something more important.

As I said before, recently I plan to change my job, because I am not very happy doing foreign trade. Maybe there is something to your surprise that I have TEM 8, which means I have high level in English. However, I have not received any big orders with six moths hard-working. Some colleagues around me may talk about me behind my back, thinking that there are some problems with my ability. In contrast, when I participate in activities outside, people there they reckon that I am excellent and often praise me for being smart.

For me, these comments often make me lose myself. I seem to be controlled by these complicated comments. But now I gradually understand that I really don’t need to care too much about external voices, because I know what I have gained in these few months of work, or I know what the purpose behind their praise is.

So gradually I began to look at these prejudices or compliments rationally. It is up to me to decide how my life goes. Other people's opinions of me are temporary. And those you experience is something which will truly accompany you for your wholelife, and this is your real wealth. So from now on, let us focus on ourselves and experience more to learn more. Come on! 

最近在低谷期，但我决定重启我的生活了。

早上我穿着跑鞋出去了，运动又重新给了我很多能量。下午公司开了个总结会议，有个环节是让我们大家发言，原本我以为不会选中我，可是话筒还是来到了我这儿。说到一半，我突然哭了出来，因为我感觉大家都很优秀，而我好像什么也没做。还有一方面原因是我感觉公司给我的资源并不多，这让我感觉很无助。

后面有其他同事发言，又让我感觉自己很幸运，生在这个年代，至少我没有被饿到，每天都能吃好睡好。其实每个人都有他自己的难处，家家有本难念的经，最重要的还是自己的心态，如何去面对它，解决它。任何时候，都不要对自己丧失信心。

加油，坚持下去，我相信你一定会迎来大订单，最好的总在不经意之间出现。

I've been in a trough /trɒf/ lately, but I decided to restart my life.

In the morning, I put on my running shoes and went out. Exercise gave me a lot of energy again. In the afternoon, our company held a meeting to summarize our 2023, and there was a section where all of us were allowed to speak. Originally, I thought I would not be selected, but the microphone came to me anyway. Halfway through, I burst into tears because I felt like everyone was excellent and I seemed to have done nothing. Another reason is that I feel that the company does not give me many resources, which makes me feel very helpless.

Later, other colleagues also say something to calm me down, which made me feel very lucky after hearing their words and stories. Because I born in this era, at least I could eat well and sleep well every day. In fact, everyone has his own difficulties. So the most important thing is your own mentality, and how to face and solve the difficulties. And never lose confidence in yourself at any time.

So come on, I believe you will definitely receive big orders, the best always appears in next corner.