生活本来就这么苦，还是只有童年的生活才会如此？

The longest and deepest impression is that the high school teacher said: Come on, it's good to be admitted to college! Indeed, I did have the best 4 years of college life in my current life. Later, he was not willing to accept the status quo and continued to take the postgraduate examination. In 2020, when I finished the graduate school entrance examination and finished the mathematics exam, because mathematics was really difficult back then, I cried directly after the exam, and called my mother, saying that I couldn't pass the exam and would never work hard again. Later, after transferring to graduate school, I was still unwilling to be a low-end 211, and wanted to go to Dr. Shui, but in the end, I still just went from a low-end 211 to a top 211, and finally missed my 985. I admit it. But when I got a doctorate, I realized that it was really difficult to study for a doctorate.

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Finally deeply understood, Martinda asked Leon: "Is life so hard, or is it only the life of childhood?" ”最久最深刻的印象是，高中老师说：加油，考上大学就好了！确实，于我现在的生活而言，我确实度过了4年最美好的大学生活。后来不甘于现状，继续考研。2020年考完研，考完数学的那一刻，因为当年数学真的太难，直接考完哭了，给母亲打了电话，说考不上算了，以后再也不努力了。再后来，调剂读了研究生，还是不甘于一所末流的211，想着去水哥博士，但是终究，我还是只是从一所末流211到了一所顶尖211，终与我的985无缘。 这我也认了。 但是上了博士才知道，读博真的好难。

现在选择方向上，没有拿定主意。 我自己本来就不懂，为什么老师不直接给我一个idea????