Today

I just flew three hours yesterday and  now have to board another three hours flight back.The sadden news came from hometown, my grandma passed away .She had been living with my uncle for less than two years since my father passed.

Emotionally, we were never close,get the bond of  blood still linger.She was my grandma after all.

Today coincides with the solar calendar date of my lunar birthday. It's not my actual birthday but the  numbers are easier to remember.

My mind feels foggy, my body heavy. I don't want think, I don't want to move. I just want this day to dissolve into silence.