英文翻译练习20231109

我甚至怀疑老天爷的恶意：它给了你一张幸福体验卡，却突然通知你，试用时间已到，且无法续时。

I even suspect the malevolence from the god who allows me to experience happiness but he suddenly inform you that time is up and there is not opportunity to prolong any more.

从小到大，我习惯了一切靠自己，而说出离婚的那一刻，我却感到从未有过的不安全感。我害怕她不答应，年纪轻轻就被我拖累，更害怕她答应，丢下我，转身离去。

I have used to depending on myself since I grow up. Yet when the idea occurs to me I feel extremely anxious. I am afraid that she will not say yes so that she has no choice but to stand the stress. However, what I am afraid more is that she really leaves, deserting me.